Motherhood

December, wow time goes fast... it is end of 2010. when it was 1999, i thought 2010 is a long way to go but here i am, when i was 14 and seeing my aunty was 26 i thought she was soo old but here i am. i believe everybody has those times... times that you would not repeat but memories. times that u would have thought not important but impress until present life... there is always be the first time for everything. as some people say "you will never know until you try" and time remind us of those things... Back to Dec... yes December means celebrations, xmas and new year; new hope, new wishes and new resolutions....

It hurts to see those people you love getting old, feels like you dont have enought time to show how much you love them while you have your own stuffs and life to do. i think about my mom and my family alot lately... #damn couldnt contact them because my little brother switches the phone off and on. i miss them, i just want to say "how are you" and "how's everything". i have done things just to make them proud of me by getting my higher education, none of my family especially woman, has Master as i do. but i feel like this isnt enough. im sure they dont need money or other material things, they just need cares and love. i was thinking "would my kids cry for me like i did to my mom last night when i missed her". i would be super happy if they do:) i was just thinking how lucky i am, i have my complete family... the further away u left home the stronger the feeling of love for family... mom, dad, sister n brothers. I MISS U