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And finally we reached to this stage when the time and plans arent ours anymore, it is involved our little man, our beautiful baby boy who was born 6 weeks ago Zachary Owen Shea! he is beautiful baby in the world others isn't matter mine is the best. He is such a gift! shine sun! everything to us! how life changes in just one day! sleepless night, nappies, baby cry but best of all is the smile that bright our day. Babies are such a torture and why are they so cute? I didn't really understand how it feels like to be a mum until I have my own. It is just different, another whole story! I will not let anyone  harm him not even the wind! I love him so much.
if I didn't have him this time, I would have travelled to Europe, we would have gone to US, I would have busy working, we would have had our own world-dining out, wake up late, shopping, dinner plan, pub (for Shea), etc. But these are nothing compare to what we have! we have a son! a beautiful mix son. He is Australian and American and of course Indonesian.
I envy him! he is born in this beautiful Manly beach! he has the privilege to enjoy our hard work to live in a better life, better country! better future! he is our first Australian generation. Zachary- I like to call him Zaki. He was born just like me and he started to look like himself with his dad's skin. But we will never know he will keep changing until 6 months
I can say life is good, there is a always the right time, place and person. we just need to plan it! our life in Manly goes perfect just like what we planned it. we plan everything. It might not go well but at least we try. we planned this pregnancy thing, we plan our trip, we plan our next trip, we are planners.
It is summer in Sydney, beautiful day. I can see the ocean, blue sea and beautiful sunset from our veranda. This is beautiful place to live and raise kids, we made the right decision to live here. no traffic nor hectic city life. it is just the beach and relaxing northern beaches life. Perfect place to live!
we don't need to fly or drive or get away just to find the beach, no we life near the beach. But we do pay a lot for this kind of living and I'm telling you- it is worthy!
I am stay home mum, I enjoy every minutes! thought my mind start thinking about work! I have school to do and bunch of paper work to fill but Ney! aint no body get time for that:) i'll do it next time when I feel like and why? because I can:)
so nice to see my son every day and watch him growing! baby grows so fast, I don't want to miss the milestone. I get to do this once in a life time I don't want to regret it! this is like vacation... I can always go back to work but I can't turn this time! the enjoyment of motherhood!
I coped very well so far, I have lost pretty much all my baby weight! I have been adjusting very well. It feels like a dream sometimes,,, when I wake up and see little me! when this thing happened? Shut I am a mum!
I managed to fly my mum and sister to Sydney to help me with this new life. My mum has never been anywhere in her life, it is such a big thing for her. she found everything fascinating, she sat hours in our veranda to see the ocean, she asked so many question about everything. She loves to see the birds everywhere flying freely, which isn't happen back home! people caught, sell or eat them, they do everything to survive! Our house is a bit crowded. It used to be no problem to have visitors but now it feels like losing my own time! time goes so quick i need more than 24 hours.
My sister and my mum are such a great help! im keeping my sister with me and send my mum home next month. im giving her a chance to have a better life! yes my sister loves it here! when you comes from nothing and you have the chance to enjoy things you don't want to come back! we might lose our privacy for couple months but once she can stand on her own feet everything will be fine!
It is just a thought:) my mum rocks Zack to sleep while I am enjoying few moment of me time:)
But all good and life is good!