Motherhood

Slow but sure, Life isnt easy as immigrant brother! i have to start everythings all over again. Forget about what i have had / achieved back home. im back to the ground and learn everything from zero. The system, culture, language, people, etc... I still hardly find a good friends, i have met so many new people. and how many people who stays as friends? few.. only handful. Job is the number one issue when the first time i got here. cant make a living with no job. I dont have many options, i did crappy job as back home i wont do it in million years... i tried to figure out the way and learnt the system.. slow but sure. I read how things work and i asked many question starting from how much is the minimun wages, rents, health care, education, retired, etc etc.. slow but sure i understood. not completely there but im getting there eventually. once you are in the system means you are in. im half way. In this time blog, im talking about "job" work is one of the reasons you wa...

Cold, cough and ranny nose... Winter really does suck!!  used to back in Indo when i feel cold i just turn off the aircon, i wish i have the remote. Cold, windy and sometimes rainny.. i really dislike winter. Now i completely understand why those tourist in Bali sits under the sun. i would do exactly the same when i get home. long ass flight Speaking about home sweet home, as i wrote in previous blog, i did go gome and suprised everyone. i managed not to tell no body but just a friend. i had long direct flight Sydney to Jakarta 8 hours by Garuda. My first visit ever. it was great, felt so good to be home. Nothing to worry as no body expected me. I just showed up infront of the door made everyone suprise, great to see their faces, my family was happy to see me. My mom once said : i want you come back as exactly as when you left. No crazy tattoo, red hair, funky style etc. missing this kue jajanan kampung Jambi traditional Wedding I went back for my brother'...

It is the end of May, time goes fast almost half year. 3 weeks ago i just turned 28. would never have thought that i would be in Sydney in my 28th bday, my 27th was in Cambodia, 26th was in Bali, 25th was in Jakarta with buch of friends and bday cake, 24th i didnt really remember..lol. nothing special just relaxing and enjoying quiet bday by myself. no good friends to celebrate and dont really know special place to go. i took a bus to chastwood. it is an hour away from Manly. big mall and supermarket and store. Hectic and busy street. first time i was there i felt like in Singapore. just like when the first time i got to see Toronto. it is like an Asian community. most of the people are Asian, there are also many asian restaurant where selling spicy food. i had pho noodle for dinner. The weather is getting really cool. i have to put my gloves and long boots. the sun goes up and down earlier unlike back home. but at least it's still there. beautiful sunset on the beach. All i ...

I'm away from home for almost a year and half, not only home land but also home country. i have seen so much thing since i left. i have met so many people and made new acquaintances. some are become friends and good friends, some are like family. i cant ask more than this. i always believe in DREAM big and make it happen. My life turns perfect just exactly like i wished for... it is all happen in my 20ish well im still 20ish. very stubborn and determine character i guess help this happen. Before even finished my Bachelor i set this goal that in my 25th i have to have my Master degrees. i was only 19 years old at that time, and i did. i have never asked any dime from anyone especially my parents since i was in university. i was poor but rich in dream. well im still remind poor anyway...lol. i know how it is like having no money, once i experience being penniless when i couldn't effort to buy food ended up eating plain white rice and eggs, but...

I was so excited when i knew one of my good friend was coming. last time i saw him was almost 5 years ago. we have been friend for 15 years or so. Since Sydney is too expensive for Indo, i had this less hope to have any visitors except from USA. my friend Ion is an Indonesian Diplomat who studies his Master Degree in Canberra, the capital city which is 3 hours away from Sydney by bus. once i tried the multiply test to become a diplomat but unfortunately i was in the second top. They only need the first one, i was very disappointed since i wanted the job so bad. i wanted to be a diplomat so i can travel around the world for free but i believed God had different plan for me.. yes He did... travel around the world i did, saw many things, met beautiful people. just like on ad. said the more you travel the richest you will be... i have seen the world and i want to see more:) Anyway, back to Ion... his my first Indo visitor ever who made it to Sydney... i met him in c...

It is almost a year i left my country and i miss it more and more each day. i miss my family and friends and my people... everything about Indonesia incl. the traffic. Manly; the weather has been so nice lately... sunny and beach. life in Manly is getting there. slow but sure... i like my new apartment, tiny 2 bedrooms apart near the beach (that cost us $2000 per month) expensive hey.. it drives me cray every time i convert things to Rupiah (Indo currency), with the same $ i can rent a house for a year. i heard Manly is one of the most wanted places to live... the beach, surf, bay, city and the northern beaches and big city life style... i met so many europian only in Manly..any nationalities in Europe, you name it they have it... incl... America.. it is just so cool when you work in such an international circumstances where everyone else is just like you came from somewhere else. i work with Japanese, Brazilian, Korean, Italian, Germany, Venezuela, Ar...

feeling like "doesnt belong here" is suck, yes im talking about this moment when i feel so down below but have no close friend to talk with not even family... or a person i feel confi to talk with. i wouldn't thought being an immigrant is this hard... feel like moving to different planet... again i feel like i don't belong here. Yes im not happy not when im writing this blog, my job is suck, the place i live is horrible suck!! i dont mean to be such a ignorance but i hate to lie when dont feel happy about things. i have been applied hundreds office job application and none of them say yes... dont feel like going anywhere either after those long trip... i lost the excitement of seeing things. the opera house doesnt amuse me. i thought i hated my life in hectic Jakarta but i was wrong. i feel so much happier living in my own comfort area than here. i don't even have friends to hang out with like back in Jakarta. i mean i do have acquittance but ...